What do you mean you weren’t there?
I saw you,
Don’t play games with me,
I know what I saw,
You can’t twist me around your finger anymore,
I don’t care about that,
I just want it all to stop,
Maybe someday,
You’ll understand what you did,
To the rest of us.
Today two books arrived and I am so excited to start them.
As some of you may know I entered a giveaway earlier this month, and I ended up winning first place! The prize was two books (I mean really, am I lucky or what? )
Anyway just wanted to give a shoutout to Jenelle! Click on her name to go to her website. It’s pretty awesome. Oh and here is another link to the read-along info for next month: http://jenelleschmidt.com/kings-warrior-read-along/ I don’t know if I’ll have the patience to wait till December 1st.
When the breeze blocked sadness,
And golden laughter filled our ears,
Those days were more than full,
Of nursery rhymes,
And children’s games,
Of hopscotch,
And merry sunny days with lemonade,
Those days were mine,
Just me and you.
How can I feel regret,
And yet still know,
That I’m where I’m supposed to be.
Its not the regret you regret your whole life,
Its momentary longings,
Flashes of sounds and what-could-have-beens.
I’m here.
You’re here.
We’re meant to be.
So please don’t worry,
Or let me worry,
When this happens,
It will pass.
Put two clevers together,
And you get,
Two boring clevers.
In the past two days I’ve been learning a lot about myself, which may or may not be interesting to you, but it’s very interesting to me. And so you get a lovely commentary on me. That sounds rather vain… Anyway here’s my thoughts.
I am my harshest judge. And this is good and bad. Let’s start with the good.
I know what I’m capable of, this makes me a pretty good judge of when something I write is good or bad. This enables me to go back and edit my writing pretty well. It also allows me to say yes this is good. This has lots of potential. But there’s a bad side to this ability. A hindrance.
Let my judgement of myself stop me before I begin. I will get an idea in my mind and immediately think “Oh no I can’t do that, it would turn out horrible.” Or “I don’t have the skill for that.”
That’s stupid. Just because I don’t have the skill for something doesn’t mean I can’t try and learn and get better. I wish I could draw but no I have zero artistic ability? Well then I should try it, I should make steps to improve. Just because I can’t, doesn’t mean I shouldn’t try. And in the process of trying, I learn. And what could be better than that?
So yeah I guess that’s my motivational speech for myself. I think I should carry this on into the next year and resolve to try new things, even if I know it will be rubbish the time round.
What about you? Does anyone else find themselves doing this?
