Happy Mothers day to all! I hope your day is as beautiful, fun and sunny as mine promises to be. Today I have a poem out in Cease, Cows‘ Mother’s Day Issue. The poem is about wanting to have children, but not being able to. Grant and I don’t really talk about this much, but we did try to have a baby about a year or so ago. But I guess it just wasn’t time and I ended up writing this poem after another month passed by with no pregnancy.
Now looking back I’m really grateful that I didn’t get pregnant, I was not in a healthy mental place and I’ve gone through so much healing since then. I’ve become more confident and have been able to manage my anxiety so much better.
I know it’s still not quite the right time to have a baby, but that doesn’t stop it from hurting when I see three pregnancy announcements each month. This poem is for anyone who struggles with the same issues as I do. For those who wish they could conceive, for those who can’t. Someday the time will be right for us all.